Somehow Relieved

Today was somehow a fine day.. things have calm down a little bit.. it is my first day of having a new point of view in life.. it was since yesterday that i need to decide for myself.. i'm tired of thinking for others sake.. although i still care for them but now its time that i decide for my future first.. i think i did all i can to meet their standards especially their expectations.. i tried everything to earn their fictional matter called trust.. i mean, i am just a human being..i also get tired.. now, i'm tired of fixing things, planning things, treasuring things, remembering things and earning things.. even machines need a break.. even flash needs to eat to gain strength.. even superman needs rest.. even the batman mobile needs refueling.. i'm tired of being pointed out to do things that i think, a lot of us can do.. now, i am somehow relieved because a lot of things that was supposed to be assigned to me again was postponed and was canceled.. i don't know if i'll ever get interested again to do things, but i think its a less chance.. i mean, i already accepted the fact that i am not a big lose to them in terms of socially more specifically in friendship.. but i don't blame them for this.. in fact, my feelings for them don't change but i'm not afraid to lose them either.. i am no longer forcing them to like me, yet i wanna apologize to them for everything i have done and have not done that hurt them.. GODBLESS^^,)