Sorry..

After all what happened, i still want to apologize to each and everyone.. lately, i have not been myself due to great stress both physically and mentally.. i badly need a rest.. unfortunately, this is not given to me.. i have to do work after work after work.. both my physical capability, mental analysis, daily emotions have been affected.. i keep on refusing on some things that are entrusted to me but instead of understanding me, they get mad and somehow blame it on me.. all i wish is for them to somehow give me a break.. to somehow, let me do what i must do for myself.. i admit it is my fault in the first place for not fighting for my right to decline.. but the sad thing is, even i accepted the job, they won't let me do things on my way.. i mean, i am now not at my full strength so i must find ways to do things that i am comfortable of.. i wish they will just let me run things as what i am comfortable.. i am not a person who likes memorizing things.. i intend to do things or learn things by actual application.. in this way, i could familiarize things easily.. second is, people takes my joke seriously.. i mean, do they really know me?.. i mean i have been showing my whole self to them all these years then, with just a joke everything changes.. i mean, DAMN!.. it was just a joke.. and if you are guilty then you'll take it seriously.. and besides, i know you.. i mean, you have been sharing your secrets with me and through those, i began to understand you personality.. it really made me mad when you said something.. it just shows that you don't trust me.. i am sorry if somehow i over reacted.. i mean it was also my fault making such a joke.. and i think due to stress, i hurriedly made a conclusion instead of analyzing things and trying to calm things down.. but i have no plan of fixing things anymore.. i mean, thanks to you i realized something.. if things are in use, then time will come it will be broken.. and when you fix it, again it will be broken.. so, i will not fix things anymore.. so that nothing would be broken.. i'm afraid i would be doing this things the same with the others.. cheer up, i am not a big lose after all.. and besides we would be parting ways.. we would meet new faces.. and forget the past.. all i wanna say is.. there is not a day that i regret our friendship.. of all my friends, i have shared more mine to you.. ups or downs, i shared it with you.. you mean a lot to me.. i am sorry for all the misfortunes i brought to you.. SORRY..GODBLESS^^,)

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