Undecided

Tomorrow would be the 1st day of march..it only means that graduation is near..every graduating student is waiting for this very moment..but not me..i think i am not yet prepared for this occasion..and the life after these..i am full of questions and fear as well..as if, i can't see myself days after these..or ever years after..it's all a blur..many have said that i'm all packed up for the so called new stage, but i guess it's only their opinion..my mind is taking too much pressure to handle..even my heart is not sure about what feelings and emotions i have..one thing that concerns me is all about my college school..it's not that i haven't passed any entrance exam but i need to decide that i would not regret after..i am not only deciding for myself but also for my sisters and family..i need to be sure about this..second one is, all about HER..i am torn between COURTING HER and LETTING GO..i have no reason to COURT HER, but i don't want to LET GO either..not yet..not yet..i need to clarify things as much as possible and as soon as possible..and i only have one shot in this..i should execute it well..for i may not have another chance..i am not sure about feelings..but one thing is for sure..SHE MEANS A LOT TO ME..A LOT..A LOT..for now, i need to lay low for a while..take a deep breathe and think things over..i need to relax somehow to be able to decide pretty well..hope i can do this..GODBLESS^^,)

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